Sorry for my emoing.
I don't know what's gotten into me.

After I had this horrendous dream earlier, he's all I can think about.

Things are supposed to get better as time goes on, right?
Then why isn't it happening to me?
Why does this wound feel as fresh as it did three months ago?

dsjkdjskljdsakl.

I think I need to cry.
But I'm so tired of wasting tears on him.
Everyone says he's not worth it, and yet I long for him.

Also, I'm falling for someone else.
I don't think they want anything to do with me though.
But we talk about getting married and say I love you regularly.
I can't help but get my hopes up.
I had my chance with this girl, why do I deserve another?

Maybe I'm really just afraid to let him go.

ugh.

I'm finished whining now, I swear.

I wish I was asexual.
Love is a straight up bitch.

OKAY I'M REALLY FINISHED NOW.

I need to be happy.

I have Animal Parade.
It's the best thing ever.

I'm hanging out with her tomorrow.
Maybe we'll connect?

My family is there for me.
I have wonderful friends.
My ex is even there for me when I need him.

FUCK BEING UPSET ALL THE TIME.
JUST FUCK IT.